Here, there and everywhere...

So, we're going on about 6 months now since my last post, huh? Interesting how so much can happen in such a short time. My last post? My friend lost her battle with Satan. I couldn't save her. But I sat by the edge of the muddy pig pin and waited for her to tire of it. Eventually that did happen. She, with God's help, is in the process of digging all of that mud out of every little nook and cranny. And God is smiling on her every day.

God continues to amaze me. He is always waiting, just outside of the muck. Ready with a towel of glistening white, arms open wide. Surely He must spend a lot of time waiting beside that pig pin for us to come crawling out. Time and time again. There's something about that muddy gunk we just love. Like a drug addict, we sell ourselves to get one more hit. Before we know it, there we are again. Slipping and wallowing in the think black muck, unable to get any of it off. I thank God that He is so willing to rescue us over and over.

I had an encounter with God last week that brought me to my knees. Face down on the floor, crying like a baby. Faced with the reality of how much I have been looking to the world to find fulfillment. Oh, how dry and starved I had allowed my soul to become. How was I to witness to the world when I was turning to the very things they turn to? How was I any different from them? How selfish and warped my thinking had become that I would point an angry finger at God and blame Him for all that my life was lacking. Yet again, He ministered to me through weeks and weeks of sermons, friends, songs, emails, scripture, and even a license plate!

Again, I am amazed that God would even want anything to do with me, let alone pursue me. But pursue me, He does. I can look back over the years, and see how many things come together to reveal His love for me. How many different ways He was speaking to me, trying to get my attention. Sometimes having to love me from afar because I wouldn't let Him get any closer.

No doubt. We serve a God who loves us with a fierce, unrelenting love. He will not let us go without a fight. He will not give up on us. And He is only a whisper away.